You notice it after the fact.The way you picked up their phrases,their moods, their opinions, their energy.The way you shifted to match themwithout ever deciding to.And later, alone, you wonder,where did I go in all of that. You are not… Read More ›
The moment it begins,your body knows before your mind does.Your heart quickens.Your legs feel unsteady beneath you.Your stomach tightens,your thoughts scatter,and something in you wants only for it to stop. You are not weak.You are not too fragile for the… Read More ›
Your heart has lost its steady rhythm.A fluttering, a racing, a quivering where there was once a calm and even beat.Sometimes it settles, and sometimes it stirs again, this restlessness at the very center of you. Your heart keeps the… Read More ›
There is a stillness in your belly that will not move.Food that sits, and lingers, and does not pass.A fullness that stays long after the meal has ended. Your stomach has grown quiet in its work.And in that quiet, there… Read More ›
Something in your blood has grown thin.A paleness has crept in, a quiet loss of color.And with it a tiredness, a breathlessness, a fading of the fullness you once carried. Your blood is the river of your life.And when it… Read More ›
Your eyes have begun to close on their own.A blinking you did not ask for.A squeezing shut, a fluttering, a wish of the eyelids to draw down and stay closed. There is something your eyes seem to be doing for… Read More ›
The vision came more than once. Each time I closed my eyes, they were there, standing in the same place, in the same stillness. I would open my eyes, move through the ordinary moments of my day, and then close… Read More ›
There is a sound only you can hear.A ringing, a high clear tone, a soft and constant hum.It comes without a source in the world around you,and it lingers, quietly, at the edge of every still moment. Your ears have… Read More ›
Lately, you find yourself pulling back.Wanting the quiet.Craving whole days with no one to answer to,no noise, no plans,just the deep relief of being alone.And a small part of you wondersif something is wrong with you for needing it so… Read More ›
There is a tiredness that goes all the way down.Not the ordinary weariness of a long day,but a deep, bone-quiet fatigue that rest does not seem to reach. Your reserves have run low.The deep stores your body kept for its… Read More ›